SLAPPED by REALITY

"i woke up late today...
got freaked out...
rushed through my morning routines...
and ran out the door...
thinking to myself that--
my sister would be mad,
i was supposed to take her to school.
my mom would be yelling: for i had bad time management.
i'd get detention... for it's been one too many times i'm late.
i'd missed the bus, for... it's stopped for me 20 mins ago....
--when i was not there?
scared out of my wits... these 20 mins could RUIN MY LIFE...

reached the door.

looked out to the outside world.

nd stopped.


--There was my mom... watering the plants.
she looks at me like i'm a freak.
my sister burst out laughing...
i say sorry about being late...the bus. my school. my sis.

Life... had went on as normally as it ever would.
only i felt anxious. frantic. guilty.

then all my mom did was threw me the morning paper.

i checked the date...

it was Sunday.

and as i stood there... the stupidity of the situation sank in.

life passes idly by on its own tracks.

--i'm standing on my doorstep. half in my pj shortshorts, the other half was a sweater messily pulled over. my hair in a tangle of GODS KNOWS WHAT. with my opened backpack slung over my shoulders.
...people STARED.
...humility SINKS in.
...yet laughter escapes, as an invisible weight lifted off my shoulders and i sighs with relief.
...i realized i no longer CARED. maybe more like PASSED the point of caring...


--I WAS... SLAPPED IN THE FACE BY REALITY." - me.